Mood AF. Would u guys want me to post my inspo and moods here as well? ✨lmk in comments or I can post on my other account .
💗 thanks for all the love from my recent post. Sometimes knowing that you're not the only one feeling that way makes it so much better. Let's keep growing forward .
I've always struggled with my weight since I was 11. I'm a stress eater. I eat when I'm stressed I don't eat when I'm stressed. Going through Chinese school was really rough and it had a toll on me mentally and of course physically. I grew up a chubby kid all till I was 17. After that I began to shed the weight by excessive exercise and not eating. I was binging and throwing food up for a good 6 months. It took a lot of time and a lot of good people around me to tell me that eating was normal and okay. If u follow me on social media you know I put so much care and effort into my body. I still exercise compulsively and try my best to stay trim and in my best shape and tbh I don't know if I'll ever get past that. I felt like the world got kinder to me as I lost the weight and people gave me more attention... it's like a drug and so I kept going. This photo was in 2012 I think. I looked like a shell of a human being. My head looked almost to heavy for my tiny torso. You could feel and see my ribs and spine. I saw this and I cried back then. I didn't understand how I got to this point my teeth were getting smaller because of my stomach acids. And they still are smaller if you've noticed. Words and images are so powerful that they affect the psyche of people. Let's try to be kinder in the world. If someone wants to lose weight and workout by means that's great. But if someone chooses not to? That's their choice. And if someone IS actively working out and working towards something better why be cruel? These words and feelings last a lifetime 😢 .